Dear God

I know that your watching me right now. God I'm struggling to get through this. It's so hard to set aside the memories and the thoughts. I've realized that I can't do it. So I'm asking you to help me. Help me get through this!
Daniel

It's been a little while. Nick is up from Virginia. I got to know Angela a little bit better today. I tell you, I pray that this is the right one for Nick because I approve of her so much that I think that they should get married asap!
I've been feeling lonely lately. I'm trying so hard to kick some habits that I got into while with Alyssa. It's still hard sometimes. I really wish I did have all the answers. But I'm beginning to realize that I just need patience and that God will bring the answers in time.
I wasn't meant to be alone. I've been thinking of that woman God has for me. I'm struggling to be that man I can be for her. I know that it'll be some time before we meet, but...who knows.
I'll get through this with God's help.

I'm feeling lonely. I want someone that I can hold and tell them that I love them. It's hard being obedient to God. I know it's the right thing, but it's still something that I want so badly. Just to share my life with another person.
God what are you doing? I need to know as much as can? When in all honesty I want to know everything. Teach me to be patient. Teach me...
Psalm 86:11

i want to do wingsuit base jumping! the thrill of jumping off a cliff and gliding like a bat would be soooooooooooooooooooo much fun! i need to do it!!

things are going well. it's going to be a long haul but life is worth living with Christ at the center!!

God forgive me! I need help!

God you have my attention! Now lead me down the path that you have set before me.

Things are a little bit tough right now. I broke up with Lyss and that's still fresh on my mind. It's hard but I know I'm going to get through it. I'm praying to God to get me through.

I want to go skydiving!!

It's fascinating how the world around us works. I just had to make a vague and open ended statement. It's a semi-busy day today with some last minute assignments to get out of the way. The semester is almost over which I am really looking forward too. I need a good break and vacation. Things are looking up and I'm improving on what needs to be done for the rest of the semester. So on to class...(sigh)

so we got together and talked and yelled and shrieked etc. in the end we realized that yes we had made some mistakes and there are some regrets but lets keep going. so after our hour long battle we went with my family and got our tree. after that i took Lyss to get her books at UMASS. it was all good!

It's still tearing me apart. I don't know whats going to happen. I don't know what to do.

Numero Uno

So things aren't going well right now. I had sex with my girlfriend in September and I've continued to feel more and more guilty. It's been slowly tearing the both of us apart. I know that God wanted me to wait for marriage to have sex. I did it anyway. She wanted to do it too. I'm not blaming her because I made the decision to go along and do it. I've had guilt on my shoulders for months. Now it's finally becoming apparent that it's not where we wanted this to go. I'm going to have to make a hard decision now. I'm afraid to do it. I know that God forgives me but I have the hardest time forgiving myself.