I want to go skydiving!!

It's fascinating how the world around us works. I just had to make a vague and open ended statement. It's a semi-busy day today with some last minute assignments to get out of the way. The semester is almost over which I am really looking forward too. I need a good break and vacation. Things are looking up and I'm improving on what needs to be done for the rest of the semester. So on to class...(sigh)

so we got together and talked and yelled and shrieked etc. in the end we realized that yes we had made some mistakes and there are some regrets but lets keep going. so after our hour long battle we went with my family and got our tree. after that i took Lyss to get her books at UMASS. it was all good!

It's still tearing me apart. I don't know whats going to happen. I don't know what to do.

Numero Uno

So things aren't going well right now. I had sex with my girlfriend in September and I've continued to feel more and more guilty. It's been slowly tearing the both of us apart. I know that God wanted me to wait for marriage to have sex. I did it anyway. She wanted to do it too. I'm not blaming her because I made the decision to go along and do it. I've had guilt on my shoulders for months. Now it's finally becoming apparent that it's not where we wanted this to go. I'm going to have to make a hard decision now. I'm afraid to do it. I know that God forgives me but I have the hardest time forgiving myself.